<:: Thursday, November 25, 2004 ::>
i have moved to
www.yourglumchum.blogspot.com
thanks.
whisperer <:: 11:49 AM ::>
<:: Wednesday, September 08, 2004 ::>
i screamed, "LEAVE ME ALONE!" after I saw that the tiny furry ants had attacked my study table. this was right after i threw 5 textbooks and 4 notebooks on the table. the ants attacked my lucky a table, my peace counter, and my gifts shrine. they won the nondisasterous war and overthrew the queen (me). i had to gather all of my belongings to study in the room next door. i just hope they're gone by now. i haven't entered my room since last evening. i don't want to tell paps or else he'll kill them. don't kill animals!!..
uh yeah, this is a pointless blog.
whisperer <:: 7:08 PM ::>
<:: Monday, August 30, 2004 ::>
people who wait for the elevator to come down for five minutes and then press the 2nd floor button drive me crazy. dude, the stairs is RIGHT next to you. the esclator is only 5 feet away. take the extra steps and exercise. i'm sure you had good tender lovin meat last night.
whisperer <:: 9:44 AM ::>
<:: Friday, August 27, 2004 ::>
updates on my cooooool bruise that hurts too darn much.
now it looks like a green birthmark. it's a nice shade of puke green. yano, it sort of reminds me of new zealand. .
you really can't discipline a person who enjoys pain. then what do you do? kill them?
whisperer <:: 5:01 PM ::>
<:: Wednesday, August 25, 2004 ::>
de dum...de duh dum...la la la la..la LA!
-unchained melody
first day of school. i came 3 and a half hours early to find parking. first, i wiggled around in my car for about ten minutes until i started to ache uncomfortably. i decided to call john l. luckily he was just walking away from the garage, so he turned around and waited for me. i walked with him to the su where he met up with 10 guys. i didn't want to be surrounded by boys so i left and sat by myself in front of the science building. along the way there, my bright fushia binder fell and so did my two overdued library books that i never had a chance to finish. in front of the building, i read myself to boredom. topics that are covered in today's spartan newspapers are same-sex marriages and the lack of horror in the prequel to the exorcist. i am a bored bum with friends who come late to schooool.
these are some memorable quotes from eleven minutes. goo owner.
-everything is important. if you live your life intensely, you experience pleasure all the time and don't feel the need for sex. when you have sex, it's out of a sense of abundance, because the glass of win is so full that it overflows naturally, because it is inevitable, because you are responding to the call of life, because you are responding to the call of life, because at that moment, and only at that moment, you have alloweed yourself to lose control.
-how does light enter a house? through the open windows. how does light enter a person? through the open door of love. and her door was definitely shut. he must be a terrible painter; he didn't understand anything.
-How is it possible for the beauty that was there only minutes before to vanish so quickly? Life moves very fast. it fushes us from heaven to hell in a matter of seconds.
whisperer <:: 8:06 AM ::>
<:: Tuesday, August 24, 2004 ::>
yesterday i cooked something on my own for the very first time. i copied exactly what booboo and cweeney did on friday morning. when i first turned on the stove, i sprayed olive oil on my wok n it splashed on my face and shirt. what a horrible idea. i just noticed today that i have two spots on the bottom left side of my face. they're now my beauty marks. in remembrence. yeah i think i made that word up.
today i purchased another two books for school. how unfortunate. i spent two hundreds bunkaroos. well, after i finished washing at least one gazillion beakersr and pipettes, i happily picked up three slices of pizzas and cheerfully said GOODBYE to dr. singmaster. step by step i headed up the staircase. suddenly, i tripped. how pathetic of me. the first thing i did was check to see if my books were alright. i'm sure people would rather pay more money for my books than for a clumsy j. from that incident, my body has acquired two new green bruises, one on my arm and one on my thigh. they don't feel swell so dont press them like you press buttons.
whisperer <:: 12:44 AM ::>
<:: Monday, August 23, 2004 ::>
i want to write something meaningful, something hopeful, something inspiring. but all that comes out is what is for dinner tonight.
i was finally alone today after four days of being with three gorgeous women for half an hour. what did i do. i turned on my keyboard and struck the volume key straight up. i blasted a nice classic mellow melody, which in my memory's shortrun, was an anecdote for my music hunger wounds.
jeannette if youre 20 now and you still havent received your free spiderman watch. remember to file a complaint. hopefully by now, you have already gotten yourself a watch. don't be late to your wedding either. good luck.
whisperer <:: 12:16 AM ::>
<:: Sunday, August 01, 2004 ::>
no matter what, i will never be h e r.
no matter what, i will never be good enough. i cannot replace. i don't want to replace. i just want to be person i was born to become w/o hoping that i was meant to be somebody else.
deliberation.
whisperer <:: 12:58 AM ::>
sometimes i do wonder what is up with my messy mind as well as other peoples messy minds. why are we so selfish? so eager to have more, when what we should have, is half of half of half of half of half of what we deserve? i do wonder what is up with these typing fingers, this peasized brain, this smirk on my face, and my weepy wary eyes. i do hope my neurotic thoughts would just settle and slowly dissipate. why am i scared to admit how i feel? why do i refuse to fall into the hole i created? i am a human, let me be one. but the question is, do i want to be like one? must i ramble random topics, must i evolve another illusion from a simple hope? don't let me lose my sanity before i even fight this war.
whisperer <:: 12:43 AM ::>
<:: Tuesday, July 27, 2004 ::>
Morning darlings.
Man, I know I'm not consistent when it comes to WHERE to update, but today I guess I woke up on the right side of the bed, which to me, it means to update on blogger.com. I woke up at at approx 7thirty something from the vibration of my phone, indicating that I had received a text message, or four messages. But nonetheless, it was like an alarm because I could not fall back safely asleep, so I went downstairs and studied for ochem. Seriously, yesterday was the first day of the prepcourse; for the first few hours, everything went by pretty smoothly, until the last hour and a half. I felt so hopeless when it came to learning the NMR. That class is going to be tough, but I will not lose hope because if others can do it, so can I. After ochem, K and I headed to M's, I quickly took a shower before C did my makeup and J and M did my hair. It felt like getting ready for prom when I had Booboo n 3D owner do my makeup and Nat n I got our hair done together, but a little less comfortable. Yesterday was S's birthday dinner. The party was really big, so it was a little hard to talk to everyone, esp since I only knew half of the people. But yeah, some people were really shady when it came to paying for the $500 meal. Oh Darn Well.
I'll just talk about the past, because the memories from the past keep lingering on my mind. Last Friday, Byron, Booboo, Nate, Justin, and I went to Santa Cruz. It was my first time there. Well, I lied. Second time, I mean. I came there when I was 8 and all I remember is going on the haunted house ride with a group of 5 other girls, squeezing on that tiny chair. That's my faint memory rollin'. Anyways, hanging out with all of them last Friday was really enjoyable. Steph and I were the only girls, and the only girls with the biggest cravings for everything that's sweet. We made the guys buy apple chips and funnel cakes. Go Nate! He enjoyed the sweets just as much as Steph and I did. We had just enough tickets for about 5 rides and because of that, we were really stingy on the rides. WEll all in all, I loved that spontaneous plan, Byefun and Booboo! Booboo, thanks for driving:) I still owe you 2.50! (...and probably more..)
On Sunday night, the three j's had another grand hungout. We always seem to be able to seek comfort in each other's presence. First, J2 came to do her nails, which seemed to have taken up 3-4 hours of her precious day on french tips. J3 came over and played video games with my brother and chatted with my dad hwile they watched the discovery channel (aww..!) Then the three J's went to Borders, where I ended up reading/playing with this 5yr boy. Wow, he was an energetic little boy. He made me press buttons and spoke to me in another language. HE pointed, I pressed the button and read "the cat in the hat." after that encounter, i reconsidered the thought of wanting to have babies at this age. wow, so hyper! I'm a gramma. I get pooped out so quickly. So yes, then we left Borders and headed back to my place. I superfed them both and we took a walk to the park afterwards. J2 was wearing sunglasses so she thought this thing was a rock. I had one of truest genuine laughs. I couldn't breathe fora while. But too fun, too fun. Afterwards, we sat on the playground for about 4 hours and chatted about random things. All in all, another interaction to cherish.
whisperer <:: 8:44 AM ::>
<:: Sunday, May 09, 2004 ::>
two new cousins, two new little cheeks to kissss !
*sigh
babies are just too adorable. theres just something about them that i cannot resist. i just want to sit and stare and poke and grab and kiss.
whisperer <:: 10:41 PM ::>
<:: Sunday, May 02, 2004 ::>
when sadness overcomes you, sickness follows those footsteps.
i'm sick and i can't breathe and i can't taste anything. this is a pain because food is so good and cannot be wasted just as energy. geez, i've forcing myself to eat all day but nothing tastes good and i don't want to faint due to starvation. i don't mind being sick, i like being dizzy and stumble after each step. but to think of chewing good food then to not be able to savour it, that's painful.
whisperer <:: 6:50 PM ::>
<:: Wednesday, April 28, 2004 ::>
o Oo 78 oO o [11:20 PM]: i wish a happy wave hit your other eye too
o Oo 78 oO o [11:20 PM]: so you'd be a panda
hehehe aww angela made me laff: ) i was asking her to share some of her happiness, so she gave me happy waves..but one ended up hitting my eye, so i have a black eye and i want to sue her. instead i got angela's happy points. so since i have one now, i want to trade them up to get a cup, but that would require 12 points, so i said i wont sue her, but instead i want 5 bonus points. anyways...this was all typed out online..
whisperer <:: 11:18 PM ::>
lately, i've taken peoples problems into my hands though i know there's nothing i can do. i feel as if i was expected to do that, but i have to be reminded that it is really none of my business. i don't like to feel like i'm someones babysistter, or someone's personal tutor, geez i don't know how to do it either. i wish i could talk..but then again, people might not like the truth, then end up blaming me for being too honest.
i just want to be me, but i don't seem to fit in anywhere. the puzzle left me.
whisperer <:: 11:07 PM ::>
recently in biology class, i have met a new friend named George. George is very (semi) old 60ishand very friendly. George helped me study for my dissection quiz yesterday and we had a silent dinner together while we studied before we headed to class. I've never met such a nice old man, he just makes me appreciate old people more and more. Today in class i sat next to George. We were both really sleepy. I looked at him, and i could see his head going to the side, then popping up again. A few minutes later, the same thing happened to me. Then it happened. This is the first time i fell asleep in class at this university. haha, my eyes got teary and my eyelids were so heavy, and i dozed off. i felt horrible because i sit in the front row, right in front of my professor, and in front of 161 people, how embarassing. sheesh, can't the professor talk about the digestive tract in a more interesting way? the class is at 4-515pm, right after my 830-230 straight scedule, yep, that's right, right after lunch. anyways, i just though id want to remember the first time i fell asleep in class. my notes were illigible at that point. i think i took notes while my eyes were closed too. anyways, what i wanted to talk about was George. he's so sweet. i think he's chinese, i don't really understand him sometimes because he has a heavy accent. i just admire him for the way he is, very friendly even though people don't quite understand him, and he is very helpful. quite funny too, he isnt afraid to be himself. if i introduce him to you, i must also introduce my friend daphne. she's also semi old, but shes the sweetest woman. just her smile, it really warms up my gloominess. so you ask, how did i come to know such wonderful semi-old people? well because i take this lab at 630pm on mondays, a lot of people who are also working while schooling enrolled in my class. so im ...the youngest person in my class. but yes...i'm so grateful to have met such sweet genuine people..they really make me smile.
whisperer <:: 10:58 PM ::>
<:: Tuesday, April 27, 2004 ::>
truth hurts, but seriously, nothing is better than the truth. absolutely nothing.
i am sick of apologizing for things i am not responsible for, but yet, i still find it the right thing to do.
whisperer <:: 11:13 PM ::>
for the first time in awhile, i finallly got allergies at the right time in the day: the morning. geez, the past month, i get allergies during the early night hours, causing me to blow snot onto my tissues rather than squint my eyes to scribble on my papers. oooho, dance class finally got canceled today! wee! no chacha test till thursday. instead i went to the library, and on the way there, i got bit by some stuppppppppid bug. i had a huge red puff on the side of my lips...unfortunately, i didnt realize that before i smiled at the security guard. hah..but ..sooo while i was sitting on the 7th floor (i no longer go on the 5th floor, everyone knows where to find me now so i cant do any work) and i was chewing on my dead cold spagetti, admiring the view and the positive signs on my papers, i sneeeeeeeeezed! ..but it wasnt a simple sneeze, where you close your after you go AHchoo, i lips splattered open...it was the grossest thing EVER. geez, i'm never going to return to that floor. this guy turned to look at me disqusted, but he could tell that i was so embarassed by the tone of my apology, so he let me be and smiled weakly. yes..lovely allergies. i hope they come during nighttime again.
whisperer <:: 11:12 PM ::>
<:: Tuesday, April 20, 2004 ::>
so, what's poppin'? it's my fat free kettle corn!
hm...yes, i suppose i'll mention that it's my birthday today, and i suppose i want to be able to recall what happened this day 10 years later.
so..i was just organizing all the papers in my binders when micheeeee called me at 1158, adeline at 12, then christine called at 1201, then kim called at 1215, then...i got a text message from nat at 212am. in the morning nick called when i was trying to adjust my belt, then cheese called, forget it: sana, christine, booboo, andrew, ken, jessica, gary, spencer, nina, rosieeeee, eric, ray d, chia, john l, margaret, jurene, nhanguyen, lynn --all had someway of contacting me to wish me happy birthday. .. i'm very grateful: ) so so then my friends came to "surprise" me after work and we all headed to lunch ..we found an ant in my friend's water.. i don't know, i feel like im showing off or something. so i shall stop. i'll just try my best next year to remember what i did on my 19th birthday.
so, i feel a little unsettled. a little unsatisfied. no no, not thinking about my birthday. i feel a little restless, as if i should be doing something out there. i can't wait till im allowed to hop onto my car to do good stuff ..sitting here, i feel like a .. here comes another dumb metaphor.. i feel like dry dirt..ooh, God, water me so i can soil others..water me please.
whisperer <:: 11:42 PM ::>
<:: Saturday, April 17, 2004 ::>
below are some stuff from my other stuff not too long ago..fyi the "crush" part died 2 days later. yep..good eh?
[ Sun Apr 04, 09:07:12 PM |
isnt it funnnnnnnnnnn when things just CANCEL OUT? ..yep in chemistry i like it when there are NO reactions...wee..or in calculus..when after taken their derivatives, the ans is 0 cuz it's -x with a chain of stuff -x with a chain of stuff...~!
[ Sat Apr 03, 07:51:49 PM |
it's sad when im having an exciting conversation with one person and a depressing one with another about how his friend died at the same time..it's scary
[ Sat Apr 03, 09:09:36 AM |
you are ghostwhite
#F8F8FF
Your dominant hue is blue, making you a good friend who people love and trust. You're good in social situations and want to fit in. Just be careful not to compromise who you are to make them happy.
Your saturation level is very low - you have better things to do than jump headfirst into every little project. You make sure your actions are going to really accomplish something before you start because you hate wasting energy making everyone else think you're working.
Your outlook on life is very bright. You are sunny and optimistic about life and others find it very encouraging, but remember to tone it down if you sense irritation.
the spacefem.com html color quiz
[ Tue Mar 30, 12:39:31 PM |
eee...spring break~! eee i finally read a book and im happy to it was a good book.. made me realized how easy it is to overanalyze and the result is to sit in a mental asylum.
i miss my 4 tinsie classes:
calc- no one ever takes my seat, no matter how late i come in, the 3rd seat from the right, second row, will never be taken.
today looks like a sad day! but it cant be too sad because im going with kuwoa later to berkeley to visit phill, andrew, and nick! yay, and it's my first time in berkeley!
[ Tue Mar 23, 07:33:56 PM |
ya, some ppl just need to grow up and start acting like a real 19year old person. yuck, how could u lie and not feel guility? darn. hypocrites make me wanna yank all my hair out.
had a good old time chatting with stephanie. at school i dont see that many people with her qualities and i miss that so much..
[ Wed Mar 10, 09:46:09 PM |
yep! it's another one of those i dont want to study for tests so instead im gonna sit here and blog!: D
love me for who i am, not for who i want to be.
hmm, chick flicks really get to me sometimes, they make me want what i won't get. they make me desire love that's not even real. but still, it's fun to watch with girls and those awws will never die. just the charming feeling of each aww's brings out the girly emotional side of me. doesnt come out often, but when it does, prepare for "awww...how could she just magically appear outside his car?!?" "honey, thats why it's a movie!"
i just want to be real 24/7..i like to be happy..being sad is a boo..life is just livlier when thers a smile on my face, well to me that is.
i like just saying what i want to say wo feeling self conscious.
if that's hard, then what's easy?
[ Thu Mar 04, 06:30:10 PM |
mmMm... i think i have developed a small crush for my "soulmate." i hope that this crush will not get serious and i will not develop an obsession for him of any sorts. just, it's kind of exciting to crush on someone and to giggle excessively at someone you dont know. the mysteries that come with this crush makes me intrigued to find out more about him. i can become a stalker if i wish, but no worries, i won't let myself get this far. i'm strong now, girlfriends before male species. the more i find out about someone, the more i either like him or get turned off. anyways life is much more than that. it's about commiting yourself to other peoples benefits. it's not about your own selfish needs, the personal desires you have should be the last thing you think about. also be careful about what you say and wish for.
[ Sun Feb 29, 11:30:15 PM |
i drove again today. it feels weird driving off and on. i dont rarely drive straight for a few days just a once here and there. it was truly a blast. i just drove to target to look for a taperecorder. nerdstatus yo but i sure want to write calmy and not sweat everytime i misspelled something and have to go back to erase and then miss an entire paragraph due to my misplaced eraser. hahh then i drove to sweethearts, ive been drinking that cookies and cream too muchthat i think those workers punch in the price before i even get to order. so yep it took me quite awhile to park because i just couldnt plainly do it. but it felt nice after i parked okay even though it was far away. my brother and i almost got ran over but thats life, you always end it on the wrong end in someones path. i like being able to get to places, though i am risking peoples lives. well thats life too, you always seem to affect someone whether you know that person or not. read the 5 people you meet in heaven by mitch albom. neat but not too darn neat. neat enough to read, i do recommend it.
whisperer <:: 10:56 PM ::>
i miss writing stuff down. i hate forgetting things, like going to walmart to print out pics then to find out that the disk of pictures is at home. sheesh, you little mind, where do you go..
whisperer <:: 10:43 PM ::>
you know you are tired when you walk around looking for something that's already in your left hand.
whisperer <:: 10:39 PM ::>
<:: Friday, April 09, 2004 ::>
aww so booboo's birthday passed and so did byefun's. everything is passing by so quickly and we are growing up so fast.
we have all moved on with our lives. i used to see booboo everyday and she and i would cut classes (the useless ones) to go eat chicken or shaved ice or pearl tea. we were.."rebels"..hehe...ya um..i remember trying to mail her gift but i didnt know her address so i had to ask daniel..now i have his aaddress to mail some antrax..but anyways...i didnt know the post office would always have soooooooooooooo many people..they all take forever to mail something..imagine, a package going to places that we havent even gone to, lucky package..so i stood in line and postage was like 5 something..i was like..whoa what the heck?! but booboo's worth it: D...i want to go somewhere far alone one day..i just wanna see if i can be able to fit in someplace foreign to me..maybe when i become a ____ ill go there to volunteer...i wanan be like that package..but ill be a 2-way package.. anyways..friday night and i cant keep my thoughts together..they're splattering around a mixer..i should go organize my professors binders..thisw ill take hours ...whats on my mind? ooh byefuns birthday passed, i think i mentioned it up there already, but i felt so bad he had to come over so ic ould him his gift, i'm glad he liked it and i made sure he got to make a wish: ) singing was so embarassing but i felt as if it was worth it. *sigh states life is different compared to college life..today i got teared up while working but i refused to let my tears slide down my cheeks, i just sat there counting the number of people who going to take o chem next sem ..yah God will take care of me...i know so:) if it isnt for fights, how will two people ever get closer w/o sharing their feelings..
whisperer <:: 8:30 PM ::>
yesterday i had a horrible nightmare. i couldn't wake up from my dream. you know when youre dreaming, if you slap yourself, you won't get hurt. well yesterday while i was dreaming, i felt that i was awake and i slapped myself but it idnt hurt ..and i tried so hard to wake up but i couldnt..it was so creepy and terrible. i was able to feel myself lying there, helplessly, but i just couldnt slap myself awake. in between some parts, i even screamed, "satan, you can't have me." what the heck..luckily nat called after i finaaaaaaaaly woke up so i called her back and she prayed for me. ..
mm..im talking to this girl from my class and we dont usually talk online..she just said.."net, i like you, you have something that i like" i felt so weird and happy..haha i mean she doesnt like me in THAT way, but i guess..we could talk to each other...i mean, people are always so lonely and are always looking for people to open up to and share...it's just a nice feeling to know that you can let someone peel a part of you off ...you can pure/true to them and they wouldnt mind..and instead theyll tell u when your peels are raw or lumpy or fresh...
whisperer <:: 8:21 PM ::>
<:: Saturday, April 03, 2004 ::>
realize that most of the posts below did not get finishedbecause i tend to often forget what i think because my thoughts burst out too quickly for me to type them all out.
my spring break was awesome, not that i learned how to surf or ran down the street naked with my two cats at 2:56 in the morning. i was able to visit my grandparents and i got to practice driving lots and ltos and lots. i saw some sweet friends and i got to eat chocolate cake at macroni grill. yummmmm. i got to read 2 books and i saw the library probably about a million times this week. that place smells but everything inside is just gorgeous.
whisperer <:: 7:24 PM ::>
i should start writing on here again.
whisperer <:: 7:08 PM ::>
<:: Monday, January 26, 2004 ::>
that boredom post is deeeeeeeeeead. today is the 3rd day of my job. on my 2nd day i gave my boss my two weeks notice. hm..shcools in 3 days! FINALLY!
whisperer <:: 9:07 AM ::>
<:: Monday, January 19, 2004 ::>
i have a newfound love for old 80's music. they're just so..real and fanciful. i have real admiration for old music now.
i am finally boooooooooored
whisperer <:: 7:05 PM ::>
<:: Monday, January 12, 2004 ::>
jeaNNettee e: sorry about earlier
iSnthIsNcheesy: why?
jeaNNettee e: because
jeaNNettee e: i left w/o saying bye
iSnthIsNcheesy: tres bien
iSnthIsNcheesy: you don't need to say bye
iSnthIsNcheesy: that way i'll know you'll always be back
iSnthIsNcheesy: :)
anujiepoojiepoopoohead is the darnest!
i'm going for a jobinterview at school tomorrow. my very first job! i am the most excited girl on earth right now! yipee yipee:D
booboo sent me a card. it made me happy. candy is dandy.
whisperer <:: 6:43 PM ::>
<:: Friday, January 09, 2004 ::>
o o o! i got a call from my school. they're looking for people to hire during rush weeks. i hope they'll pick me sincei only want to work for two weeks. pick me pick me. let this be my first first jobBbb
whisperer <:: 3:41 PM ::>
<:: Thursday, January 01, 2004 ::>
i got back from my vacatiion getaway two days ago. let me write about it so i won't forget it.
the whole house shook as we (mom dad twerp and i) scrambled around the house to get ready at 3 in the morning. i wrote a lot of scripts in my mind. i also thought a lot, too bad i didn't have anything to write on. first destination was tahoe. i read while my brother and my dad skied/snowboarded. i fell asleep twice. i had bad back pains. but when we left, i was so jumpy. destination 2: reno. why? to eat @ the all you can eat seafood buffet @ the silver legacy hotel. yano, my brother played @ circus circus and won so many prizes. he's darn good. he's gonna win all these prizes for his g/f one day. i'm going to wait and see. we slept in silver legacy. the shower head was really strong. the water strongly shot me. it was an amazing experience. my shower head at home is weaksauce. we woke up the next morning and left because no one gambles. we just there for the food. destination 3: bishop (mono lake) gee golly, o pretty... frozen lake. the weather was below 0. the roads were steep. the cars drove slowly. i was dying for a potty break. my dady kept on saying that the scary truck from wrong turn was nearby. gah. never see that movie. it was disqusting and disturbing. well, we stopped @ this snowy park. it was closed but we're asians so we don't read the "Don't Enter" sign. the snow was really deep so our feet were burried as we walked around. snow fell into my shoes. my feet were frozen for the next 4 hours. the park was dandy. anyhow, we reached bishop and ALL of the hotels were booked. we managed to squeeze into this hotel. we said no to motels because we didn't want to get robbed @ 4am. the room we got was "family size." i expected...big cozy room with lots of free condiments. because we (2 adults 2 children) could no squeze into a regular room, we had to get the family size room. insteead we were stuck with a pretty standard room and an attached "room" that was the size of a closet. inside, there were exactly two sets of bunkbeds on each side and window. we called it the dog house.honestly it looked like one and it was one. the next morning we headed to LA. in LA, just to be frank, we did a lot of eating and moping around and buying things. the end. o yah, i bonded with my brother int he dog house. i asked him about his teachers and whatnot. i love the little guy. one day, he'll change the oil in my car. he's so useful. esp when i need markers that are downstairs. teehee, kidding, i do love him. very much.
i thought of so many interesting things to write about but now that im in frotn of a computer, everything has flown out into the crispy thin air. darnit. just to be typical, i'll write about my day today. i woke up with a horrible headache and a bad croaky voice. i saw my secret santa, anuj, and he gave me my gift: a red scarf and a picture of us when we were in elementary school. i couldn't laugh. i told him my voice isnt normally like this, it's not like im some underground drug addict. then he took me home because imt oo cheap to go watch a movie. i miss kim and michelle. i want school to start just so i could see them again. i spent my new years on the phone with kim.
whisperer <:: 2:55 PM ::>
<:: Monday, December 15, 2003 ::>
so. today i received a frozen tv dinner instead of my regular 20 bucks for lunch. it not only cooled my warm backpack, but also froze my egg sandwich at 649 am. hungry, i still ate it, all the yellow frozen yoke and the white icy outside. finally during 2 pm after my two finals, my friend stephanie and i walked around looking for microwaves to heat up my embarassing enormous tv dinner. out of luck, it's also finals week. so appparently, all of the microwaves @ sjsu go on vacations during this glorious time. hungry, why wait? grab a snicker. if only there was one lying on the floor, if only..
whisperer <:: 9:26 PM ::>
<:: Thursday, December 11, 2003 ::>
a night like this doesnt come very often for me. i am still awake.
i really enjoyed today. i don't remember but i think i havent been so content in so long. i just want this day to never end. i know it's better if my heart were broken, then God could enter it more and more. right now, i feel soothingly calm. exposed. as if someone has read my brain. as if someone just suddenly understood me. as if i can finally rest because i'm dead. but i'm not, so that's the catch. good golly, let's let the eerrie war begin.
whisperer <:: 12:35 AM ::>
hey future jeannette,
remember when you have kids. please don't forget to talk to them. please don't forget to interact with them. they need you to love them passionately. there are parents out there who bring their kids to monterey to take pictures of them next to the seals. then next to the sea urchin. then next to the starfishes. but, they do not communicate with them. "here, smile" "now, here, smile" don't let them grow up deprived from love. kiss them goodnight.
thanks, present jeannette
whisperer <:: 12:16 AM ::>
<:: Wednesday, December 10, 2003 ::>
lately, i think i've been too ambitious. i want to accomplish so many things, yet i realized that being a college student limits all of my free time. i want to make the most out of my life. i want to join the chemistry club because so far i know it's teh only club that does community service. at first before school started, i wanted to become a sunday school teacher. now i want to make sandwiches to give out. i know i sound stupid, it's not that im showiing my "good" heart off or anything, i just feel like that's better than giving them money. i want to knit all these incredibly things like my mom. i want to get a job in the hospital. i want to drive aimlessly around a parking lot at half past 5. i absolutely hate my car accidnet because i'm so limited to things now. i can't do anything i want to do. my weekends, im stuck at home. not entirely "stuck" though. i like being at home by myself, i'm just so used to it that it's not a big deal anymore. but sometimes, i just wish i could drive myself to the park to just sit and be confused at how God's beauty works. or go shopping alone, just to look at things and see interactions between parents and their kids. my elementary schoolpark is walking distance, but i guess all the kidnapping reports around sj have scared me. i wish i wasn't such a chicken.i want to be bold. o God, make me lean on the orange peel that You are so i, the orange, can lean on You. so when WE roll off the table, You're still there to protect me.
whisperer <:: 11:42 PM ::>
Chris Chu randomly IMs me on monday morning @ 430 am our time. he tells me of something he has written for me on his blog for me since i'm the only one who reads his posts now. It literally brought me to tears because he made me feel special when i felt so ugly. Thank you, Chris.
Because Jeanette is probably the only one who still reads this, I have decided to make a special post just for her....
5 reasons why Jeanette is the coolest little krinklepuff...
1. She has a big big heart:)Compassion practically oozes out of her ears. And the look on her face when she's talking about people she cares about, or causes she feels passionately for... Which brings us to #2...
2. She has the best smile. So big, so bright, so happy, so cute. Couldn't ask for more.
3. She's a writer! Not only does she write, but she's really good at it. She's uses imagery really well, and interprets her life with vivid natural analogies (i.e. grass, sunshine, ocean waves, etc.). I would buy any book she writes.
4. She loves God genuinely. I feel the pleasure of God when I worship alongside her.
5. She's so cool that 5 reasons isn't nearly enough to cover it all. ^________^
There's only one Jeanette Troung, that's for sure!
whisperer <:: 10:57 PM ::>
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whisperer <:: 8:58 PM ::>
i just had a great chat today with christine. haven't felt so joyful in so long. i finally sang in the shower from the top of my lungs. i am being dramatic.
i've been hanging out with my newly made friend kim a lot. yesterday she came over we painted our nails with 2min dry thick nail polish (which actually took 30 mins to dry), wiggled our butts, ate shaved ice (sorry booboo, it's still OUR traditional hangout, that or qcup) our fingers turned blue our faces turned white it was really cold, ate my moms new chow mein with top secret brown sauce, and watched runaway jury by paying 12 quarters. while those events happened, i think i almost died 4 times. she makes me laugh so much that i almost stopped breathing. if you have truly heard me laugh my REAL laugh, then you would know.
lately, i feel so grateful. God's been abundantly blessing me to be content. He provides everything that i need. i know i don't deserve this, but He is just THAT cool. Praise God:D i'm glad that i am staying here for college. i like looking forward to see my momma when i come home on mondays, tuesdays, and thursdays.i know God's working on something, i just need a clue. may He bless me with some prophetic dreams tonight.
monday and today i've had the chance to catch up with a few people from highschool. i'm happy that everyone is safe and content just as well. i finally feel as if i'm growing spiritually and physically. i know that i'm not as stuck-in-the-past as before. i don't want to feel this same way after 5 months have passed away.
whisperer <:: 8:47 PM ::>
<:: Monday, December 08, 2003 ::>
i cant wait for my life to be over.
nope nope nope
i want another snow day. now, that would be cool.
whisperer <:: 11:38 PM ::>
<:: Friday, November 14, 2003 ::>
evening, good evening. to all those chocolate lovers out there who bought unsatisfying chocolate brownies from the supermarket: don't be unhappy. to be content, all you have to do to get that fresh out of the oven taste is to microwave those tiny packages for around 30 seconds and they'll be as good as mrs. fields cookies. truly from your biggest chocolate fan.
seeing my fingers type these words make me feel a little anxious. if only i had something interesting to write about. day after day, everything is a routine. day in, day out it's school from 7or 8 to 8 or 9. i might as well bring a blanket there. if only my back could handle the condiments needed for a girl's day.
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whisperer <:: 5:52 PM ::>
<:: Tuesday, October 07, 2003 ::>
had a greeeeeeeat night! i studied wiht my good frien allan after class. before, we went to the art show...there they had a banquet or somewhat ..the art was really nice..esp the fotography:D i miss photo..i thought having people signing on toilet papers as a guestbook was pretty creative. i laughed and quickly admired the dumb jokes that were written on them. then we went to the cafeteria, along the way, i dropped my cocktail shrimp. allan felt sorry for me so he got me pizza...something that i winked at and dispised after one bite. i do not like something that looks like slimier than lipgloss. umm then we wen to the library to study at 700..good thing i had coffeee...so i studied till 830 when my mom called to tell me to go catch the bus so i could go home. i waited from 830 to 930..and the bus didnt come. i didnt even know tiem was flying by so quikcly, i was just standing there under the streethlight waiting..it was REALLY NICe..it felt romantic..me, the book, and the night...:D downtown is so crowded at night...:) the bus never came..so my mom picked me up and ....awww my mom is really sweet..and cute...she made some touching remarks that made us cry...but i love her so muchhhh..i love my mommie:) i came home excited and worked til now. i havent even changed yet..i like to study! o boy! o boyyyyy!
whisperer <:: 11:02 PM ::>
<:: Tuesday, September 30, 2003 ::>
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cant help but laugh how a small little quiz can actually determine who you are...whoo..if that's the case...that's wack
whisperer <:: 11:18 PM ::>
<:: Monday, September 29, 2003 ::>
hmm i feel refreshed today..this morning..i guess since i havent cried since empowerment camp..i just feel better..just more awake and concerned..:) im okay..feeligs change...things come and go..never dwell and never be dependent on anyone but God...my first midterm is coming up in 26 minutes. im a bit nervous but i dont wnt to study anymore. it won't help. it's either i know it or i dont know. yesterday was interesting..i had a niec chat with erika my owner..somehow we were going through the same things..ad it just touched me how..everyone out there is usually going through the same thing but we never let ourselves open up and receive help...we dont trust...we dont like to share...we are too prideful...i dont know..but i want to know..i want to grow and not be so stubborn...
whisperer <:: 9:05 AM ::>
<:: Wednesday, September 24, 2003 ::>
umm...just got out of class..just as i was walking around and incidently this girl i met on the bus was in this glass conference room. we waved to each other. then i just continued my path onto discovering the library.
whisperer <:: 10:51 AM ::>
<:: Tuesday, September 23, 2003 ::>
hmm..what's been up? lots and lots and lots of things..most not worth to be mentioned..
umm..things that have happeened awhile ago...
nat came to visit me at school! that was really sweeeeeeeet. we went to eat @ la vic..well she did, i got a bite though..then we got to share about ..life.. She then came with me to class for a few minutes and that was that.
hien and ken came to visit us sjsu students too! i honestly dont remember which day it was..but that was joyful! we had a nice sandwich outside the library. afterwards carmen graciously got me mango bobas. those were..very very fruity.. ken came with me to class afterwards and took notes for me. my hand went on a vacation to my pockets. paradise.
one wednesday long ago, angela and i had a short chat after getting pearlies. that was very summerly fun like.
last thursday byron came to visit. we just had lunch under the palm trees and while muffling onour lunch. then we proceeded to listen to the LIstening hour at school. those 3 guitarists were very ..entertaininggg.
on sunday i said goodbye to christine. we sang our songs from the CD to each other..it was very sad.
it feels like....ive been saying goodbye to my greatest friends..it's been so ..sad. i feel alone in san jose, i left my heart in someones front shirt p
oaiwhetoihawethaowihetoiawhet write later gotta go running out of mins
whisperer <:: 8:58 AM ::>
<:: Tuesday, September 09, 2003 ::>
hellllo!
it's lunch. i finally called a friend. guess what? she has ALREADY gone home:( so, ive been living a vive da loca, not really.
hmm de dum! o yes! i saw my dearlybeloved granbutta today! yipee! it was nice, i was so surprised.
whisperer <:: 2:40 PM ::>
