yearning for you

<:: Wednesday, April 28, 2004 ::>

 
o Oo 78 oO o [11:20 PM]: i wish a happy wave hit your other eye too
o Oo 78 oO o [11:20 PM]: so you'd be a panda


hehehe aww angela made me laff: ) i was asking her to share some of her happiness, so she gave me happy waves..but one ended up hitting my eye, so i have a black eye and i want to sue her. instead i got angela's happy points. so since i have one now, i want to trade them up to get a cup, but that would require 12 points, so i said i wont sue her, but instead i want 5 bonus points. anyways...this was all typed out online..
whisperer <:: 11:18 PM ::>

 
lately, i've taken peoples problems into my hands though i know there's nothing i can do. i feel as if i was expected to do that, but i have to be reminded that it is really none of my business. i don't like to feel like i'm someones babysistter, or someone's personal tutor, geez i don't know how to do it either. i wish i could talk..but then again, people might not like the truth, then end up blaming me for being too honest.

i just want to be me, but i don't seem to fit in anywhere. the puzzle left me.
whisperer <:: 11:07 PM ::>

 
recently in biology class, i have met a new friend named George. George is very (semi) old 60ishand very friendly. George helped me study for my dissection quiz yesterday and we had a silent dinner together while we studied before we headed to class. I've never met such a nice old man, he just makes me appreciate old people more and more. Today in class i sat next to George. We were both really sleepy. I looked at him, and i could see his head going to the side, then popping up again. A few minutes later, the same thing happened to me. Then it happened. This is the first time i fell asleep in class at this university. haha, my eyes got teary and my eyelids were so heavy, and i dozed off. i felt horrible because i sit in the front row, right in front of my professor, and in front of 161 people, how embarassing. sheesh, can't the professor talk about the digestive tract in a more interesting way? the class is at 4-515pm, right after my 830-230 straight scedule, yep, that's right, right after lunch. anyways, i just though id want to remember the first time i fell asleep in class. my notes were illigible at that point. i think i took notes while my eyes were closed too. anyways, what i wanted to talk about was George. he's so sweet. i think he's chinese, i don't really understand him sometimes because he has a heavy accent. i just admire him for the way he is, very friendly even though people don't quite understand him, and he is very helpful. quite funny too, he isnt afraid to be himself. if i introduce him to you, i must also introduce my friend daphne. she's also semi old, but shes the sweetest woman. just her smile, it really warms up my gloominess. so you ask, how did i come to know such wonderful semi-old people? well because i take this lab at 630pm on mondays, a lot of people who are also working while schooling enrolled in my class. so im ...the youngest person in my class. but yes...i'm so grateful to have met such sweet genuine people..they really make me smile.
whisperer <:: 10:58 PM ::>

<:: Tuesday, April 27, 2004 ::>

 
truth hurts, but seriously, nothing is better than the truth. absolutely nothing.

i am sick of apologizing for things i am not responsible for, but yet, i still find it the right thing to do.
whisperer <:: 11:13 PM ::>

 
for the first time in awhile, i finallly got allergies at the right time in the day: the morning. geez, the past month, i get allergies during the early night hours, causing me to blow snot onto my tissues rather than squint my eyes to scribble on my papers. oooho, dance class finally got canceled today! wee! no chacha test till thursday. instead i went to the library, and on the way there, i got bit by some stuppppppppid bug. i had a huge red puff on the side of my lips...unfortunately, i didnt realize that before i smiled at the security guard. hah..but ..sooo while i was sitting on the 7th floor (i no longer go on the 5th floor, everyone knows where to find me now so i cant do any work) and i was chewing on my dead cold spagetti, admiring the view and the positive signs on my papers, i sneeeeeeeeezed! ..but it wasnt a simple sneeze, where you close your after you go AHchoo, i lips splattered open...it was the grossest thing EVER. geez, i'm never going to return to that floor. this guy turned to look at me disqusted, but he could tell that i was so embarassed by the tone of my apology, so he let me be and smiled weakly. yes..lovely allergies. i hope they come during nighttime again.
whisperer <:: 11:12 PM ::>