yearning for you

<:: Sunday, August 01, 2004 ::>

 
no matter what, i will never be h e r.

no matter what, i will never be good enough. i cannot replace. i don't want to replace. i just want to be person i was born to become w/o hoping that i was meant to be somebody else.

deliberation.

whisperer <:: 12:58 AM ::>

 
sometimes i do wonder what is up with my messy mind as well as other peoples messy minds. why are we so selfish? so eager to have more, when what we should have, is half of half of half of half of half of what we deserve? i do wonder what is up with these typing fingers, this peasized brain, this smirk on my face, and my weepy wary eyes. i do hope my neurotic thoughts would just settle and slowly dissipate. why am i scared to admit how i feel? why do i refuse to fall into the hole i created? i am a human, let me be one. but the question is, do i want to be like one? must i ramble random topics, must i evolve another illusion from a simple hope? don't let me lose my sanity before i even fight this war.



whisperer <:: 12:43 AM ::>