yearning for you

<:: Friday, April 09, 2004 ::>

 
aww so booboo's birthday passed and so did byefun's. everything is passing by so quickly and we are growing up so fast.

we have all moved on with our lives. i used to see booboo everyday and she and i would cut classes (the useless ones) to go eat chicken or shaved ice or pearl tea. we were.."rebels"..hehe...ya um..i remember trying to mail her gift but i didnt know her address so i had to ask daniel..now i have his aaddress to mail some antrax..but anyways...i didnt know the post office would always have soooooooooooooo many people..they all take forever to mail something..imagine, a package going to places that we havent even gone to, lucky package..so i stood in line and postage was like 5 something..i was like..whoa what the heck?! but booboo's worth it: D...i want to go somewhere far alone one day..i just wanna see if i can be able to fit in someplace foreign to me..maybe when i become a ____ ill go there to volunteer...i wanan be like that package..but ill be a 2-way package.. anyways..friday night and i cant keep my thoughts together..they're splattering around a mixer..i should go organize my professors binders..thisw ill take hours ...whats on my mind? ooh byefuns birthday passed, i think i mentioned it up there already, but i felt so bad he had to come over so ic ould him his gift, i'm glad he liked it and i made sure he got to make a wish: ) singing was so embarassing but i felt as if it was worth it. *sigh states life is different compared to college life..today i got teared up while working but i refused to let my tears slide down my cheeks, i just sat there counting the number of people who going to take o chem next sem ..yah God will take care of me...i know so:) if it isnt for fights, how will two people ever get closer w/o sharing their feelings..
whisperer <:: 8:30 PM ::>

 
yesterday i had a horrible nightmare. i couldn't wake up from my dream. you know when youre dreaming, if you slap yourself, you won't get hurt. well yesterday while i was dreaming, i felt that i was awake and i slapped myself but it idnt hurt ..and i tried so hard to wake up but i couldnt..it was so creepy and terrible. i was able to feel myself lying there, helplessly, but i just couldnt slap myself awake. in between some parts, i even screamed, "satan, you can't have me." what the heck..luckily nat called after i finaaaaaaaaly woke up so i called her back and she prayed for me. ..

mm..im talking to this girl from my class and we dont usually talk online..she just said.."net, i like you, you have something that i like" i felt so weird and happy..haha i mean she doesnt like me in THAT way, but i guess..we could talk to each other...i mean, people are always so lonely and are always looking for people to open up to and share...it's just a nice feeling to know that you can let someone peel a part of you off ...you can pure/true to them and they wouldnt mind..and instead theyll tell u when your peels are raw or lumpy or fresh...
whisperer <:: 8:21 PM ::>