<:: Thursday, December 11, 2003 ::>
a night like this doesnt come very often for me. i am still awake.
i really enjoyed today. i don't remember but i think i havent been so content in so long. i just want this day to never end. i know it's better if my heart were broken, then God could enter it more and more. right now, i feel soothingly calm. exposed. as if someone has read my brain. as if someone just suddenly understood me. as if i can finally rest because i'm dead. but i'm not, so that's the catch. good golly, let's let the eerrie war begin.
whisperer <:: 12:35 AM ::>
hey future jeannette,
remember when you have kids. please don't forget to talk to them. please don't forget to interact with them. they need you to love them passionately. there are parents out there who bring their kids to monterey to take pictures of them next to the seals. then next to the sea urchin. then next to the starfishes. but, they do not communicate with them. "here, smile" "now, here, smile" don't let them grow up deprived from love. kiss them goodnight.
thanks, present jeannette
whisperer <:: 12:16 AM ::>
<:: Wednesday, December 10, 2003 ::>
lately, i think i've been too ambitious. i want to accomplish so many things, yet i realized that being a college student limits all of my free time. i want to make the most out of my life. i want to join the chemistry club because so far i know it's teh only club that does community service. at first before school started, i wanted to become a sunday school teacher. now i want to make sandwiches to give out. i know i sound stupid, it's not that im showiing my "good" heart off or anything, i just feel like that's better than giving them money. i want to knit all these incredibly things like my mom. i want to get a job in the hospital. i want to drive aimlessly around a parking lot at half past 5. i absolutely hate my car accidnet because i'm so limited to things now. i can't do anything i want to do. my weekends, im stuck at home. not entirely "stuck" though. i like being at home by myself, i'm just so used to it that it's not a big deal anymore. but sometimes, i just wish i could drive myself to the park to just sit and be confused at how God's beauty works. or go shopping alone, just to look at things and see interactions between parents and their kids. my elementary schoolpark is walking distance, but i guess all the kidnapping reports around sj have scared me. i wish i wasn't such a chicken.i want to be bold. o God, make me lean on the orange peel that You are so i, the orange, can lean on You. so when WE roll off the table, You're still there to protect me.
whisperer <:: 11:42 PM ::>
Chris Chu randomly IMs me on monday morning @ 430 am our time. he tells me of something he has written for me on his blog for me since i'm the only one who reads his posts now. It literally brought me to tears because he made me feel special when i felt so ugly. Thank you, Chris.
Because Jeanette is probably the only one who still reads this, I have decided to make a special post just for her....
5 reasons why Jeanette is the coolest little krinklepuff...
1. She has a big big heart:)Compassion practically oozes out of her ears. And the look on her face when she's talking about people she cares about, or causes she feels passionately for... Which brings us to #2...
2. She has the best smile. So big, so bright, so happy, so cute. Couldn't ask for more.
3. She's a writer! Not only does she write, but she's really good at it. She's uses imagery really well, and interprets her life with vivid natural analogies (i.e. grass, sunshine, ocean waves, etc.). I would buy any book she writes.
4. She loves God genuinely. I feel the pleasure of God when I worship alongside her.
5. She's so cool that 5 reasons isn't nearly enough to cover it all. ^________^
There's only one Jeanette Troung, that's for sure!
whisperer <:: 10:57 PM ::>
innocent kiss - you're cute and sweet and like it
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whisperer <:: 8:58 PM ::>
i just had a great chat today with christine. haven't felt so joyful in so long. i finally sang in the shower from the top of my lungs. i am being dramatic.
i've been hanging out with my newly made friend kim a lot. yesterday she came over we painted our nails with 2min dry thick nail polish (which actually took 30 mins to dry), wiggled our butts, ate shaved ice (sorry booboo, it's still OUR traditional hangout, that or qcup) our fingers turned blue our faces turned white it was really cold, ate my moms new chow mein with top secret brown sauce, and watched runaway jury by paying 12 quarters. while those events happened, i think i almost died 4 times. she makes me laugh so much that i almost stopped breathing. if you have truly heard me laugh my REAL laugh, then you would know.
lately, i feel so grateful. God's been abundantly blessing me to be content. He provides everything that i need. i know i don't deserve this, but He is just THAT cool. Praise God:D i'm glad that i am staying here for college. i like looking forward to see my momma when i come home on mondays, tuesdays, and thursdays.i know God's working on something, i just need a clue. may He bless me with some prophetic dreams tonight.
monday and today i've had the chance to catch up with a few people from highschool. i'm happy that everyone is safe and content just as well. i finally feel as if i'm growing spiritually and physically. i know that i'm not as stuck-in-the-past as before. i don't want to feel this same way after 5 months have passed away.
whisperer <:: 8:47 PM ::>
<:: Monday, December 08, 2003 ::>
i cant wait for my life to be over.
nope nope nope
i want another snow day. now, that would be cool.
whisperer <:: 11:38 PM ::>
